hello again dear friends :) Todays topic is fear. To be specific what am I afraid of.
I guess the biggest thing I am afraid of is others seeing me afraid. I have this subconsious piece of me that just has to be strong all the time. As much as I know I don't have to be, subconsiously I do.
The next biggest thing is actually something I have been working on. Growing up I was severly afraid of being rejected. I don't really know where it stemed from, and I'm not entirely sure if I want to know. I've found that the better my self-esteem and self-confidence are, the less the rejection affects me.
Physically I don't really know what I am afraid of. I'm not afraid of heights and bugs/reptiles gross me out but they don't scare me (except for those big hissing cockroaches, eeew).
I'm not afraid of being alone, in fact, most days I prefer it. That being said, I am afraid of dying alone. I see dying alone as no one feeling the need to be with me when I go, and I hope that I impact someone's life enough to want to be there in my final moments.
Dying isn't on the fear list. I'm not entirely religious but I have faith that another place exists beyond ours, and that place gives me peace.
One fear that I've dealt with since I was about 6yrs old, is my parents dying. I was watching horror movies at a very young age. You'd think I would've had nightmares every night, but it was only one. My dad died in the dream and to this day I can remember every detail about that dream. Over the years that same dream reoccured once and there were a few other dreams concerning both my dad and mom. I know someday they will die, there's nothing I can do about that. But every Christmas or birthday I can't help but think what if this is the last one.
So that is most of what I am afraid of. I suppose I could sit here awhile longer and go on, but I have depressed myself (and probably you all) enough for one day.
I work 8-close tonight so everyone have a great night/day :)
The best statement I've heard is "Love is letting go of fear". The opposite of Love is not hate, it is fear. When we fear our divine mind, that part of us that is connected to spirit, is tell us that we are out of alignment with the truth about who we are. I fear being alone because I am not aligned with the truth that I am connected to all through spirit. Our negative emotions are good things because they are a sign post for us, tell us we have forgotten something important.
ReplyDeleteI am very impressed at how well you have overcome certain things in your life, but yet have other things in your life that sit in the back of your mind, but you are able to not allow it to control your life.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing this with us and I can't wait till your next blog.
See this is much better than normal blogs of I pet the dog today. Much more insightful.